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I started to write this a few days ago and now I am back to it. I have to be strong even though I don't know where to start. Again a dear one is gone, the guilt I feel, the tears. I keep asking God why? What have I done wrong? I don't know where… Continue reading Life

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It’s tough today, a tribute to my big brother

I am sorry I have been away for some time now. I have had to deal with personal issues and the mix of school has made it tough for me. Today makes it a year I lost my elder brother. It has brought a lot of memories to me. I have thought of what to best… Continue reading It’s tough today, a tribute to my big brother


Chronicles of my second missionary journey 4: Expecting and losing at the same time.

Wow, this is deep.
Ps, this is my younger sister.


GA: 4-6 weeks

I do not know how to feel these days. Expecting a child should be a thing of joy n’est pas? Losing a family member is a sorrowful period. I am caught between these two emotions, it is safe to say that my emotions are a train wreck right now. I cannot rejoice, I dare not cry. My expression remains bland. Hubby often times can’t read me, is she depressed over her brothers illness or is she just having morning sickness?

Today, I receive bad news…. my brother has passed. I am distraught, my emotions sink further. Even my daughter is helpless. She senses mummy is not okay but she has no idea why.

This is a trying time for everyone around me. I am treated like an egg about to crack. “Don’t cry, it’s not good for the baby”. “Remember your condition”. All these nuggets of advice…

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